life unwrapped and savored

In a flash it happened.

I realized… me sitting there wrapped in black skin soaking in the light of the two monitors. One computer was blasting “I want you” by Common while the other was playing “Runaway Jury”. I throw my head back with one foot resting on an old Blockbuster rental sleeve and the other in a tangle of wires. The storm of half ass projects, books, software and movies are chaos pushing in but (for no apparent reason) the panic of “too much” slips away.

I leaned my head on my hand and laugh as my life flashed before my eyes moving in and away like the blur of the city from Interstate 25. Suddenly, I wasn’t a lonely, unhappily-married, 33 year-old geek father in debt up to my earballs… stuck in every sense of the word. Suddenly, I was a free spirit just passing through. It was clear enough to allow me the savory whiff of sweet, spontaneous bliss. For that moment, I could taste my life and the flavor was like a homesick nostalgia. Like a precious souvenir that will become one of many knick-knacks on a mantle of eternal nothingness. In that moment, my love for you and my family and friends was complete because in so many unseen ways, I am looking through your eyes too and laughing like Buddha.

Then it all faded away like wind swept leaves as I started to type “In a flash it happened…”