fading in and out

I feel like I am in a dream that I can not wake up from.

There are remarkable things happening when my body is sleep but I can not participate. Or rather, part of me participates but when I “wake up” in the morning the slate is wiped clean. I forget about it and I am off to work. I am left with a feeling that I have been apart of something amazing… but the details are just out of my reach. So I’m stuck in a hazy half life where a fraction of my total life is being experience because I can’t recall the rest. Something is happening..

During the day I get so wrapped up in my work that I can’t enjoy just being alive. Before I know it, its 11pm again and I’m feeling guilty about not getting enough sleep because I know I’ll be up until 12am. And those beautiful dreams slip away again.

Something is happening even when my body is awake. In the middle of the day I get glimpses and impressions of other people’s lives. Some sad, some boring, some amazing and filled with love and lust. I wouldn’t call it psychic… its more like noise because I don’t know which are my thoughts and what are theirs. So I dissmiss it all as imagination and enjoy all the perspectives. Airports are great for this pass time. But Walmart makes me very uneasy… or maybe that is just guy in me wanting to get in and get the hell out.

I just hope that one (soon) I can shine a bright light on all of these unconscious adventures.